day two of ns resumption (or rather, day 696 in total) brings back repulsive memories of regimentation that i have been vindicated of for 8¼ months. 34 more days till summer technically begins and i'm already dreading this liability (literally). blahh.

and so.. a quarter of uni life disappeared after i walked out from a 34 page exam.

this term has taught me:

- that everything i learnt from poly is inherently flawed, if it was of any use to begin with. either that or this "unique pedagogy" has gone a little too unique.

- english is subjective. and there's no point arguing if a subjective view is used as a standard. heck, that means there is no standard.

- one can make a living predicting a range of numbers instead of predicting the number itself. for the extreme, learning theorems also induces sleeplessness from their sheer ability to approximate patterns.

- that working through the night screws with your mind. thus, effective time management is important; but it is also a fallacy. which basically means: be prepared to lose a little more sanity next semester.

- that corporate social responsibility is a lie and business ethics is all but theory, which focuses on self anyway. that, albeit sadly, is a reaffirmation of my last point from last semester.

summer begins in a month for me. after i get ns done and over with, starting monday when i have to don repulsive green again. well, at least there's circle line.

the past week has been hectic; being the last week of school, plus i only started on my research paper due thursday during the weekend (which explains why i wrote continuously for 23 hours, less meals, to complete it thursday 5.20am). i'm also way behind on 2 other assignments and a whole backlog of revision.

so it probably wasn't a good time when my grandfather passed away tuesday 2.08pm. he's been in and out of hospital for the past few years for diabetic complications and at the icu a week before, so i guess we were more or less prepared for it. my past week was trying to finish work and being at the wake when i wasn't working. today, we sent him on his final journey, after almost a century of adventures escaping from the chinese army to singapore, and entrepreneurial startups from soya bean milk to coffee shops to making my family what it is today.

it's been a long day traveling here and there, and i'm glad hes resting at a pretty nice place. i wrote this line for my synthesis assignment six weeks back: "only through adversity do emotional bonds forge", and today, i can attest to the true meaning of that statement.